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Wow I really suck at decision making. I just jump at the first decision and then act like I’m happy with it without really researching to see whether I really do or not. Now I’ve gotten myself into a big mess. I don’t know what to do. I paid my deposit for two schools and I’m really afraid of  being revoked admission..

Why….do I not think about things?…

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Don’t tell me that you love me, because anyone can tell me that. Tell me that I make you tear up with anger and frustration, but at the end of the day you still want to lay down next to me, put your arms around me, and sleep.

Unknown (via psych-facts)

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Selfie from Friday.

Selfie from Friday.

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we live in a world where pain is romanticized and romance is painful

Everything you love is here (via lovequotesrus)

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schoolhall:

my godfather took this picture some years (1998) before he died of cancer, he loved photography so much even when he was in hospital he used to carry hes camera. 
ive got tones of pictures but this one its kinda special, the woman reading in Rio de janeiro, shes a stranger, he stood there for a couple of minutes waiting to get the perfect angle and took the picture, when he developed it he gave me his camera (even tough i was a toddler), if he was alive, he would be one more blogger in here, he was so special, the kind of person that could see your soul before your face.

schoolhall:

my godfather took this picture some years (1998) before he died of cancer, he loved photography so much even when he was in hospital he used to carry hes camera.

ive got tones of pictures but this one its kinda special, the woman reading in Rio de janeiro, shes a stranger, he stood there for a couple of minutes waiting to get the perfect angle and took the picture, when he developed it he gave me his camera (even tough i was a toddler), if he was alive, he would be one more blogger in here, he was so special, the kind of person that could see your soul before your face.

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I think the saddest thing someone could ever say is ‘please don’t leave me’.

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Friends or nah

Wow out of all nights, this is the night where everyone is hitting me up…when I feel like a mess.

My ex (who is just a friend now) texted me saying “let’s hang out whenever tonight.” And I don’t know how to react to that because he NEVER talks to me. He didn’t even follow me back on instagram. But once in a while he will hit me up and be like, let’s chill. I don’t understand. I really don’t. Like does he just think, “Oh yeah, there’s that Cat person I used to date. I could hang out with her.” Yeah I wish I could understand why people do things like this.

This girl I used to like calls me and says we should hang out, and I really want to except like I said before I feel like a mess and stuff… We talked on the phone for about an hour and yeah we did confess some stuff. I really missed talking to her because one day she just stopped talking to me. But lately I guess we’re reconnecting.

Why do people do that to me specifically? Am I that easy to just forget about? I have no long lasting friendships because I’m that friend that gets forgotten. I’m that friend that tries hard but ends up crushed. And I will never know why this cruel world has done this to me, and I don’t care anymore but I’m used to it. Maybe one day I’ll find more friends like Tina who truly try to keep in contact with me and really care about me but for now I just have her and I love her so much <3 story-of-the-teenage-years

@ oomf : You know what maybe I don’t didn’t plan out my spring break, and maybe I don’t have that many friends. And yes sometimes I do get jealous of how many friends you have. But you know what it doesn’t matter to me anymore. Because I realize that in a way we’re kind of fake to each other even though deep down I truly do want to be your friend. But at the end of the day you make me feel like I’m the last person you’d ever think about. I care about you, I do but the real question is do you care about me? One day I’ll have it all, maybe not now. Maybe now it’s your time, you get most of the things you want, while I sit back and envy. And one day I’ll be far away from here achieving all I ever imagined for myself. Living that life with the freedom I’ve always dreamed up with true friends who really care. And you’ll be that distant memory that pushed me to succeed because I want to prove to people like you that you do not phase me in any way. I will live the life I want to. You do not affect me because I will never let you.

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I am a lonely piece of shit and will probably die alone with my 3 dogs since I am allergic to cats.

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It’s such a shame. I have never gotten to see the cherry blossoms.

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I refuse to chase anyone anymore

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Abuse

You want to talk about abuse? Okay talk about how you can’t wait a few minutes to drive your own children home but you can make your daughter wait for a few hours for you. Talk about how everything I do is for myself? Yeah well, I rarely feel like I get anything. And what kind of person first thing when they do when they see their children, yell, “Mother fuck you! Get the fuck in! What the hell is wrong with you?” Oh yeah because we “abused” you by making you get out of the house. You didn’t even have to drive us there. Making a big deal out of nothing. I’m so tired of your shit like, I am 100% done. I can’t deal with everything you’re throwing at me. All your negative energy. How you constantly cuss at my brother and I. “Goddamn you! Fuck you! Mother fucking goddamnit fuck you two!”

Okay fuck you too.

It doesn’t have to be like this. This type of language doesn’t need to be exchanged but you make it this way. Your impatience costs you even more misery. 

Yeah you not only majored in asshole, you also majored in dumbass.

So go fuck yourself.

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